Posted by: Megan Flynn
“Okay, I have lots and lots of
questions. I drive my teachers
crazy. I drive my parents crazy. I drive myself crazy. But I can’t help it – questions just pop into
my head. I try to stop them, but the
don’t stop. I am a Christian. At least, I think I’m a Christian. See, there I go. I doubt that I’m a Christian half the time
and doubt that Christianity is true the rest of the time. If Jesus were sitting here right now, would I
have a ton of questions for him! But I wonder if he’s answer them of send a
bolt of lightning to zap me. “
This
sounds like something that I would have said a few years ago. I worry. I worry and over think absolutely everything I
do all day long. My faith is no
exception. Thoughts like “What if I’m
wrong? Do I pray right? Do I pray enough? Does He hear me? Am I good enough for Him to listen to me? How
could he forgive me?” are always running through me head. With so many voices constantly screaming at
you that this way is right or that way is right how can we be assured that what
we believe is true and what we are doing in right?
Many times in my life I felt like I may not
be a Christian because if I was, then I wouldn’t ever be unsure. But I have
come to realize that questioning is essential to faith. God want us to seek him out. He wants us to look for him, but he doesn’t
want us to worry. God reminds us again
and again throughout the bible to trust him.
He knew what He was doing when we where made and there is nothing we can
do to separate us from Him.
There are many people around me who are so
sure and steady in their faith and seem to have every answer. That used to frustrate me and cause even more
doubt. But the curious and questioning
people are essential! We are made that way for a reason. We challenge.
We test. We push people’s buttons
and start conversations. And when we
fight through all those questions, finally getting to the answer is even more
rewarding! Keep searching and keep
asking, but leave the worry behind.
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